Alexander’s Fight to Beat Cancer
JANUARY 30, 2023 at 8AM
Yesterday (Jan 29th) at around 7am, lying between his mother and me, holding our hands and with close family in the room, Alexander quietly left us. He is at peace and no longer suffering the cancer that was taking over his body. I am not spiritual but I believe there is more than the world we know. I believe Alexander is now running around, playing with toy cars, riding his big wheel and playing with other children who were also dealt such unfortunate hands in this world.
A celebration of Alexander’s life will be scheduled in Los Angeles. I will post details when we have set a time and location.
JANUARY 27, 2023 at 4PM
Today, we made an unbearable decision. It will break my heart for all eternity. As of today, we are no longer treating Alexander’s cancer. His medical care is now limited to keeping him as comfortable as possible.
Alexander is now suffering too much. Attempts to eliminate or reduce the tumors have failed. The most recent trial here at St Jude did nothing to even slow the growth of the tumors. With each failure the cancer has taken the opportunity to invade more of Alexander’s body. It is now causing significant damage and Alexander’s quality of life is diminishing unbearably fast.
In the past 5 weeks, intermittent back pain became persistent and increasing back pain soon followed by a sudden loss of control of his legs. And shortly after his bladder and bowels. Now several tumors are forcing fluid into the pleural cavity surrounding his lungs and limiting his ability to breathe.
My sweet, clever, silly little boy deserved so much more than this. I will update again within the next 48 hours with more information. It is overbearing just to write this. I am sorry to share such devastating news. I know so many of you have been so supportive of Alexander from the beginning.
JANUARY 11, 2023 at 3PM
St. Jude Children’s Research Hospital, Memphis, TN. After 3 long days of tests, Alexander has made it into the clinical trial. Tomorrow, we attack some cancer cells.
JANUARY 8, 2023 at 9AM
And away we go to Memphis to enroll Alexander in a clinical trial at St. Jude. Let’s get this kid healthy. Thank you AeroAngel for making this trip as easy as possible!
DECEMBER 19, 2022 at 4PM
I have been waiting and hoping to give everyone some good news about Alexander this Christmas. Unfortunately, the news is mostly not good. Alexander’s cancer continues to resist everything we throw at it. It’s just too aggressive.
After the cancer reoccurred, the first chemotherapy we tried reduced the tumors slightly. This was better than expected but it alone wasn’t enough to get him to the next step, stem cell transplant. We switched to a different chemo combination in hopes it might do more. It was almost entirely ineffective. Alexander’s most recent scans show the tumors growing instead of shrinking.
While we didn’t gain any ground against the cancer in the past five months, Alexander has been able to play, run, swim and be himself for most of it. I won’t accept anything less than getting him back to 100% healthy but I am grateful for even just the small consolation of him being a happy kid every day.
Now, there are new complications with the one tumor outside of his lungs. It is a paraspinal mass which, as the name suggests, surrounds his spine. Since his relapse, it caused him occasional back pain but was mostly manageable. Over the past week, his back pain has escalated rapidly and now it prevents Alexander from standing or walking. Remarkably, this area of his spine received the most radiation during his primary treatment and nonetheless the cancer somehow withstood it. Alexander has been in patient over the weekend while his doctors get him stable and work out a plan to relieve the pressure on his spine.
Despite all of this, Alexander’s spirit is still strong. This is the sliver of good news. He is determined to play and laugh. Being confined to a bed will not stop him. I cannot tell you how much that keeps me in one piece right now. There is no stronger medicine than his laughter. I selfishly make him laugh just to get a dose of it. Thank you, my tough beautiful boy for being more resilient than I could even imagine. Thank you for being silly. Thank you for being the goofball sweetheart you always are.
Once again, we consult with the top experts in pediatric solid cancers. As of now, there appears to be one more option in terms of curative treatments. It is a phase one clinical trial at St. Jude’s in Memphis, TN. Like all the options since relapse, it is a long shot. But while there are options left, we will take them. Alexander was scheduled to fly to St. Jude’s this Sunday but the recent issues with his ability to stand and walk have complicated matters and we must first get him stable before he can travel.
I have so much more to say but I am emotionally and physically drained and need to keep focused on Alexander. I will update things here as they progress for good or for bad. Alexander continues to feel the warmth and support from so many people close and far and it does so much for the both of us. I wish the news was better. He deserves so much more than this.
P.S. If for any reason I didn’t respond to a text or call, please try me again. Sometimes I wait for the right time to respond and the whirlwind doesn’t give me any for too long. I am so grateful for all the moral support and help. I am not sure I would have survived this far without it.
AUGUST 29, 2022 at 4PM
Alexander turned 5 last week. Happy birthday, Alexander! While we couldn’t have the big party we hoped for, we did have a small one with a few fun surprises. Alexander’s uncle very kindly arranged for two police cars and a fire engine to come wish Alexander a happy birthday. If you know any 5 year olds, you know that’s a big deal! Fortunately, he hasn’t been too heavily knocked down by the chemo and we’ve had some fun days at the beach, the playground, and at the trains in Griffith park, etc. He doesn’t like the return of the hospital routine but he is otherwise in good spirits and is, as always, driven by playtime.
Last week, Alexander underwent a stem cell harvest in advance of a possible stem cell transplant following high-dose chemotherapy. The harvest involves several well-timed injections of growth factor over a period of days followed by several hours plugged into a machine that plucks the stem cells out so they can been preserved. It involved a small surgical procedure to place a line in his neck that serves as the “plumbing” to the machine that does all the work. All in, it was a 14 hour day at the hospital.
An interim chest x-ray indicates the tumors have reduced slightly. Alexander doesn’t have any more back pain and we’re taking that as a further sign the chemotherapy is shrinking the tumors. We won’t really know how much until the CT scan happens in about 2.5 weeks. We need to get him back to fully NED (no evidence of disease) before we can undergo the high-dose chemo / stem cell transplant. This weekend, we started the second cycle of TIC (Paclitaxel, Ifosfamide, Carboplatin) which is an in-patient process.
We’ve talked to a lot of doctors. They all agree on the approach. Thank you to everyone who helped with referrals, introductions, etc. I’ve been really bad at replying to a lot of messages. Please keep checking in. It helps.
AUGUST 5, 2022 at 8PM
Just a quick note to say this fight is not over. After three days of consultation and prep, Alexander starts an entirely different chemotherapy tonight. It is not commonly used for this cancer but is common for the genetic mutations at play that made the more common chemotherapy ineffective. It is a long shot but the experts agree it is the best shot we have. If that goes well, Alexander may become a candidate for high-dose chemotherapy followed by stem cell transplant. Another long shot but we’ll deal with that when we get there. There are also three immunotherapies that come into play if stem cell transplant looks less feasible.
Alexander has only a little intermittent pain in his leg likely from the tumor in his back. He has otherwise been playful and rambunctious, leading tours around the 4th floor most of the day.
I know it is not easy to even simply bear witness to this. We appreciate everyone showing their sympathy, support and being there for us. We do not feel alone.
THIS IS DIFFICULT: AUGUST 3, 2022 at 1PM
We’ve been on a really good run the past few months. Alexander went to Michigan with Courtney. He’s been back in school learning and playing with classmates. Swimming lessons. Trips to the beach. Seeing friends. Clear scans. Good appetite. Hair, eyebrows and eyelashes. Basically, a normal, boisterous, playful, happy, healthy boy. It’s been great. My hope for a happy future replenishing each day as we set about a new normal father / son routine.
Suddenly and without warning, that routine upended this week. Alexander endured a year-long intense cancer treatment that eliminated all detectable cancer and kept it away for several months. But it apparently did not get all of it. Somehow, this sinister cancer was able to withstand some of the harshest chemotherapy, hide away and bide its time for months. And then, with its disgusting aggressiveness, it only needed a week or two to transform from entirely undetectable into 8 nodules in his lungs and a mass in his abdomen invading his spine.
We are now back in the hands of CHLA and Dr. Mascarenhas. But unlike the last time, we are in uncharted territory with no obvious options. The only known curative treatment is the one Alexander just completed and that has failed. There are immunotherapy trials in NYC, Washington DC, etc. They are unproven with this particular cancer. There are other potential options also unproven. We have reached out to the top solid tumor pediatric oncologists across the country (Geller, Mullen, Dome, Ortiz) and they are working with our doctor to figure out which of those might be best to consider.
We have to decide quickly. Alexander has only minor pain in his back at the moment but we can already see the changes to his energy in the past 48 hours. The tumors are growing quickly and we are on borrowed time. With this decision we may be forced to accept the devastating possibility that there is no suitable option. If that is the case, if the only treatments are ones that won’t cure him or open up the opportunity for further treatment to cure him, we then need to weigh his comfort with the pain and suffering the treatment would bring and how much time it would buy us.
I am sorry to have to share this news with you. It is devastating. Our hearts are broken. We are overwhelmed with grief. Do not misunderstand our resolve though. Even in the face of impossible odds, we continue to fight. If there is an option to take, we will take it. We will fight. Alexander will fight. And my gratitude to all of you who have helped in so many ways is unending.
JULY 12, 2022 at 11AM
This has been a long time coming.
QUICK UPDATE: JULY 7, 2022 at 6PM
His first post-treatment scans show no sign of recurrence. Best birthday present ever!
JUNE 8, 2022 at 7PM
MAY 30, 2022 at 1PM
This one is ready to race Monaco, rain or shine!
APRIL 12, 2022 at 4PM
On May 9, 2021, Alexander was diagnosed with cancer. 11 months ago. In those 11 months, Alexander has endured:
70 days of chemotherapy
53 blood draws
29 days where he was sedated
25 days in-patient
13 days in the PICU
13 days of radiation
8 blood transfusions
7 CT scans
5 unscheduled trips to the ER
2 major surgeries
He has gained back the 2.2kg he lost from the surgeries, chemo, and nausea and now weighs exactly what he did on the day this all started, 18.2kg. And the most important number as of today is 5. Alexander has had 5 sets of clear CT scans in a row. And 5 clear scans is a great way to complete his cancer treatment. Which Alexander did today. He rang the bell today in recognition of the Herculean effort undertaken to get to this milestone.
We owe a huge amount of gratitude to the Children’s Hospital team, Dr. Mascarenhas, Dr. Grikscheit, Dr. Moke, Elizabeth, Margaret, everyone in the infusion center, the top notch PICU, the nurses in 4 West, the radiology nurses, and so on. Thank you all.
Now comes a new phase of Alexander’s recovery: getting back to being a healthy and normal kid as much as possible. Playing with other kids, going to school, birthday parties, getting colds, scraping knees, eating everything in sight. And growing back some hair on his beautiful shiny noggin, getting some color in his cheeks and putting some meat on his bones!
All this said, there is still risk. Despite the intense course of treatment, this type of cancer has a not insignificant rate of relapse. We return in 3 months for his first post-treatment check-up. If we get the all clear then, the chances improve for the next check-up in another 3 months also being clear. And so it will go every three months for the next year. And then the check-ups will become a little less frequent but will still continue.
I want to thank so many of you for your support. This has been such a brutal experience but one we have survived ever so slightly less scathed thanks to your thoughtfulness. It has made a big difference. We owe you. And we miss you. COVID and cancer has deprived us of time spent with good friends long enough. We need to make amends.
BOXING DAY UPDATE: DEC 26, 2021 at 9PM
Alexander had a healthy and fun Christmas. His favorite gift appears to be the big puddle on the sidewalk down the street left by the recent storms. He has zoomed through it a couple dozen times on his big wheel. We were lucky to have the end of his last cycle coincide with Christmas leaving him pretty much symptom free the whole week. We begin cycle 10 (of 14) of chemotherapy this week. Since the last update, he has had a third set of clear scans. All points in the right direction. Onward with hope for a much different year ahead. More updates in the new year.
THE CAILOU KID UPDATE: NOV 12, 2021 at 11PM
This is loooong overdue. I apologize for not putting something out sooner. Many of you have reached out and I’ve been downright awful at responding. Sorry! You are good friends. Please don’t stop! I’m crawling out my shell! Slowly.
Part of the delay, I realize, is that I have been waiting until there was news to share. I’ll get to the point before I ramble on for a bit (which I invariably will): the news is mostly good. Alexander is halfway through this longer-than-forever regimen of chemotherapy. Radiation is complete. The big news is that we mark this milestone with not one but two sets of clear scans. This means that not only did the surgery on his lungs rid him of all detectable cancer, it means the chemo is successfully preventing any cancer too small to detect from regaining any kind of a foothold.
It is only half-time though. We have another 5 months of chemotherapy. With this particular type of cancer, we need all of those 5 months to wipe out all the lingering cancer cells we cannot see. (Without tempting fate), Alexander has been tolerating his chemotherapy exceedingly well since the last update. We’ve spent more time out of the hospital than in it. He hasn’t lost much weight. He gets a few opportunities to do normal kid things. He wakes up with a smile on his face.
All of this is good news. It is a lot to be grateful for. And I am grateful for much more than I can possibly enumerate here. Looking back on my last full update (July 28), we’ve come a long way. Alexander had just escaped the PICU which, in hindsight, was a 12-day nightmare. I didn’t realize it at the time. I was a robot in survival mode. Only now that it has calmed down do I get to unpack that experience and take stock. It’s going to be a while before I fully come to terms with it.
Now, paradoxically, it is only because he is doing so well that I can afford to be at all consumed by the myriad insults he has to endure each day e.g. excessive bruising, weight loss, waking up at 4am to throw up because dad misread the nausea, low appetite, pants that keep falling off, multiple blood transfusions, medications galore, being shackled to an IV pump for hours, for days. To put it bluntly, these all suck. And no kid should have to endure any of them. But it could be so much worse.
And as much as this tries to drag me down, I am buoyed by Alexander’s demeanor above all else. He’s unphased. Not because he’s a fighter or a warrior. He’s neither. He is too young to understand what those are. He’s just a little boy who wants to be a little boy. And he’s pretty damn determined. You can pump him full of chemicals, subject him to surgeries; he will still want to play. He will still want to giggle. He will still want to jump and stomp. He will still want to make funny sounds and be the goofy kid he is. Even when he doesn’t feel very good. That snaps me out of any funk I may be in. If a four year old with cancer can look past it to be in the moment and make the most of each day, so can I.
Next update will be a week or so after Thanksgiving. If we’re closing in on Christmas and you haven’t yet seen an update, hunt me down!
UPDATE #10: July 28, 2021 at 11PM
From the frying pan into the fire. After 12 days in the PICU, Alexander has been sent upstairs to the fourth floor to resume the chemotherapy where he left off. The minuscule cancers – the ones they cannot detect, the only ones that remain – are not taking any time off. Nor can we.
That said, the doctors have given Alexander a few days to rebuild his strength and complete the withdrawal from the numerous heavy-duty opiates and other drugs he’s had in the past two weeks. This kid has done more drugs before the age of 4 than I have in my whole life (so far).
It was a traumatic experience seeing Alexander motionless for so many days. His only movement being the artificial inflation and deflation of his lungs by a machine on the other end of a plastic hose. Tubes went from inside his chest down into two plastic boxes taped to the floor and full of bubbling water making his room sound like a pet fish store. And then there were the moments he would start to wake despite the sedation and the interventions needed to keep his lungs from collapsing.
Thankfully, that is now behind us. The underlying cause of the air leak syndrome that caused his ventilation and prolonged stay in the PICU is still not clear. I am simply grateful beyond words that I have my boy back and he is no longer in any immediate danger. The PICU staff at CHLA are amazing and dedicated people. We are grateful.
Tomorrow, Alexander has a new CT scan so radiology can revise his radiation plan and get started next week. Once that is done, we start the third cycle of chemotherapy which lasts five days. We go home Sunday or Monday and continue therapy as an outpatient having been inpatient just shy of three weeks. The boy is tough! The fight continues.
UPDATE #9: July 15, 2021 @ 6PM
Two steps forward, one step back. Yesterday morning’s surgery was successful but there were complications with Alexander’s post-operative recovery. The two cancerous nodules in Alexander’s lungs were both cleanly removed yesterday leaving him with no detectable cancer at the moment. The complication came about as result of air from his lungs escaping into his body and getting trapped under his skin. He was literally inflating.
A follow up surgical procedure was required yesterday evening to examine his airway and lungs and to redo the chest tubes that were not doing their job in preventing air leaking into his body. Alexander was also put on a ventilator as a precaution. The trapped air and the chest tubes can be very painful and as result, Alexander will remain sedated and in the PICU for the next few days until it is mostly reabsorbed.
The surgical complication is a temporary setback. Yesterday afternoon was scary and it is painful to look at his bloated motionless body. But, it is 100% recoverable and temporary. And there are no more detectable tumors in his body and that is the more important development. Once he is recovered enough, we resume chemotherapy and radiation to mop up the lingering cancer cells from his body. The fight continues…
NB: Instead of a current photo of Alexander in the PICU (which is not a pleasant sight) I am giving you one from a month ago that I haven’t shared yet and is just cuteness overload.
UPDATE #8: July 13, 2021 @ 8PM
It’s been a minute since I’ve provided a detailed update. Alexander has completed two cycles of chemotherapy. Each one caused neutropenia (very low white blood cell count) and a low fever which required a four day hospital stay.
Yesterday, Alexander had his seven-week scan to get an updated look at his lung nodules. All but two have disappeared and there are no new ones to be found. Good news.
The two that remain however, did not shrink much if at all. As result, our oncologist Dr. Mascarenhas wants them removed. And that is what will happen early tomorrow morning. One nodule will be removed from his left lung and if that goes well, they will also remove the one in his right lung.
In between the numerous hospital visits and even during bouts of nausea, Alexander has maintained his determination to play. We’ve been swimming, hiking, going for walks, and playing in the sandbox. His spirit is strong and he continues to tolerate the chemotherapy as best he can. Keep him in your thoughts tomorrow morning. I will share the result of his surgery as soon as we know.
UPDATE #7: June 6, 2021 @ 9AM
Alexander’s first round of chemotherapy was a triple whammy of cancer-fighting drugs: vincristine, cyclophosphamide and doxorubicin. It was followed by a week of nausea. Fortunately, the anti-nausea medication mostly worked, Alexander kept up an appetite and he ate reasonably well.
This past week, Alexander’s second dose of chemotherapy was a lighter one and outside of the expected weakening of his immune system, we hope there won’t be much else in terms of side effects for the next nine days. It has not all been smooth sailing, however. Alexander has developed an aversion to the hospital (who can blame him). This week, he pulled at his port access just before receiving his second dose of chemotherapy. There was a lot of tears as the nurse replaced it. We’re working on strategies to get Alexander more comfortable with the pokes and to make him feel like he has more control. Suggestions welcome.
In between hospital visits, we’ve been keeping Alexander active. Daily walks, rides on the big wheel, a new sandbox in the backyard, playing with visiting family, a trip to the botanical gardens at the Huntington library and so on.
I’ve been telling Alexander about all the people near and far who have been sending their continued love and support. Some close friends and family. Some we haven’t seen in a long time. I want Alexander to feel the affection just like his parents do. I want him to know just how many people are on his team, how many people he has touched, how many people are there for him.
The next big test comes in about ten days when Alexander starts a 4-day administration of etoposide, carboplatin and cyclophosphamide. Two weeks after that, it’s thirteen doses of radiation over two and a half weeks.
We are looking for a nanny who has experience with kids in Alexander’s situation, who can also help around the house and generally make this situation more sustainable over the next 9 months. We also want to set up play dates for Alexander as we get more in tune with his general health during chemotherapy. He loves being around other kids and we need to keep that going for him.
May 26, 2021 @ 11PM
One down, twenty-eight to go. Radiology must be wondering where their Radio Flyer went.
UPDATE #6: May 23, 2021 @ 11PM
First and foremost, we are grateful and humbled by the outpouring of support, donations and wishes for Alexander (and us). It buoys our spirits and helps Alexander tremendously. Thank you.
Alexander had a great weekend being a normal kid. A lot of playtime at the park on Saturday and a lot of playtime at the beach today. He loved it. The kid has fortitude. He is determined to play. If I had the surgery he did, I would be a whiny pain in the ass for weeks.
Wednesday, we begin the second phase of his treatment. Alexander is enrolled in clinical trial AREN 1921 led by the Children’s Oncology Group. It is the only realistic option for the cancer he has. It comprises an aggressive 10 month regimen of chemotherapy. I loathe the idea of putting toxic materials in his little body but there simply is no other option. This cancer is aggressive. So much so, the nearly grapefruit-sized tumor they removed was likely non-existent only three months ago.
We hope Alexander responds to chemotherapy with the same determination, resilience, and strength he has with his surgery. We are also preparing ourselves for the likelihood that there will be many rough patches. We are going to do everything within our capability to maximize Alexander’s strength over the cancer. Right down to daddy shaving his head at the same time Alexander has his head shaved. Solidarity, baby!
I will have an update after his first round of chemo. The fight continues.
P.S. A lot of people have been asking how they can help. We’re working with some of our friends to help figure out what we will need in the coming months. We have the GoFundMe (https://www.gofundme.com/f/v4wbk-help-alexander-beat-cancer) which gives us maximum flexibility. But, if you prefer to offer something more personal, we should have some suggestions soon for what might be most helpful. And if you simply want to offer moral support and encouragement, it really really helps!
May 18, 2021 @ 5PM
On a more positive note, first full day at home. Lots of playtime. Kinetic sand. Happy kiddo.
UPDATE #5: May 18, 2021 @ 7:30AM
Alexander is home. His energy is good. Last night, he played and giggled like he would normally. If you didn’t know it, you would not guess he had a major surgery 6 days ago. He took his surgery like a champ.
Yesterday, we got some insight into the pathology of Alexander’s cancer. A little background…
Wilms’ tumors occur in about 500 children per year in the US. It is rare. 450 of them are considered “favorable histology” and respond well to chemotherapy. Even at stage IV, the four year survival rate is between 85 and 90%.
The remaining 50 have some degree of “anaplastic” cells. These cells are much more resistant to chemotherapy. Yet many of these anaplastic containing tumors have only a small percentage of anaplastic cells (focal type) and are still very treatable.
And then there is Diffuse Anaplastic Wilms’ Tumor (DAWT) where the tumor is predominantly anaplastic and more resilient to chemotherapy. This is a rare subset of a rare subtype of a rare cancer. Four year survival rates at stage IV with aggressive chemotherapy are somewhere between 30% and 60% depending on the treatment protocol.
I was convinced Alexander’s cancer would be in the 90%, the favorable histology and as terrible and as unfair as it is, it would be treatable. It would be survivable. As much as the chemo would be awful, and as unfortunate as this is, the odds would still be on his side.
Yesterday, we found out his prognosis is a fair bit darker. This is a big setback. But it is only a setback. It is not over. It means we have an even steeper and more perilous path ahead of us. That battle starts next week.
May 16, 2021 @ 12PM
For the love of muffins, Alexander has his first solid food since the surgery.
UPDATE #4: May 15, 2021 @ 3PM
The days and nights have completely blurred together. Admitted 6 days ago. 3 days since the surgery. 2 days without the epidural. 2 days free from everything but the IV. 1 day in normal clothes. 1 day since being able to get out of bed and walk around.
Alexander has impressed his doctors with his progress. We’re waiting for his digestive tract to finish rebooting. Then he can have solid food and hopefully go home soon after!
In the meantime, we’re doing laps of Four West and Four East in a toy car, taking long naps each day to heal, blowing bubbles, listening to guitar, reading books and getting way too much time on the iPad. Maybe a therapy dog later!
The first chapter in the book How Alexander Beat Cancer is almost complete. Chapter 2 begins next week. Chemotherapy. The pathology report is imminent and it will tell us what we’re up against.
UPDATE #3: May 13, 2021 @ 5PM
Alexander IS tough! Only hours after his surgery, he was awake and eager to move around. That would have been no problem if he wasn’t:
- high on morphine and an epidural
- bound by an array of tubes and wires going in and out of him
- having a huge incision in his abdomen that needs to heal.
After a few hours awake, Alexander slept soundly for the rest of the night despite his epidural machine complaining loudly every few minutes about the line being (intermittently) blocked. The nurse came in and fiddled with it over and over and over to no avail.
Alexander did not like the tube up his nose that drained his stomach and he tried to yank it out 3 times. Fortunately, it is now removed.
With the primary tumor out and Alexander healing from his surgery, the next steps are to establish an oncology plan. This will likely include both radiation and chemotherapy. While the primary tumor has been removed, we already know cancer nodules exist in his lungs and possibly elsewhere. The exact plan we follow will be determined by Dr. Moke, Alexander’s oncologist, once the pathology of the tumor is determined.
I forgot to mention yesterday that during his surgery, they implanted a main line port in his chest which will be used in place of an IV for his chemotherapy over the next 6+ months. There is a long road ahead but we took a big step in the right direction in the past 24 hours.
P.S. We had sushi last night while Alexander slept. It was a little reprieve for mom and dad. Thanks to one of you for the Uber eats gift card.
UPDATE #2 : May 12, 2021 @ 5PM
Alexander is out of surgery. 4.25 hours. Dr. Grikscheit, Alexander’s surgeon, came out to tell us it went well. The complete tumor along with the kidney it took over were removed without spillage. No intrusion by the tumor into the major blood vessels. No major blood loss. No surgical complications.
From the right kidney, the tumor expanded to under his liver and against his duodenum (part of the small intestine) and out into his abdomen. The good news is there wasn’t any obvious indication it had grown into any of those organs.
Alexander is now in recovery and Courtney will be able to be with him (only one parent is allowed as result of COVID precautions). If all goes to plan, he can come back to his room in an hour or so. He will be sedated. He will have an epidural to numb his body below his chest. He will have a catheter. He will have a tube in his nose that drains his stomach because his digestive tract will effectively stop functioning for a few days as result of his intestinal tract moving around.
UPDATE #1 : May 12, 2021 @ 3PM
Alexander’s surgery has been postponed until 12:30pm tomorrow. It will last roughly 3 hours. He’s tired of being poked and prodded but is thoroughly enjoying the Radio Flyer rides around the fourth floor. He swiped a fingerful of ultrasound gel into his mouth this morning during an hour-long ultrasound. He did not enjoy the taste.
We delayed the surgery by a day to make sure we were in the best hands and part of that was transferring to Children’s Hospital. Alexander is now in the care of Dr. Tracy Grikscheit (surgeon) and Dr. Diana Moke (oncology). Both have extensive experience with pediatric cancers like this. The team here is beyond impressive.
So many people have reached out. It is truly heartwarming. Alexander is loved and that is helping to lift us all. My phone has been buzzing quite a bit but I’ve had to ignore it most all day as we have been through a dizzying number of steps with doctors, tests, scans, etc. to get Alexander ready for tomorrow. Karlyn Nelson, a cancer survivor and close friend of Courtney’s, has kindly organized a GoFundMe page for Alexander.
I hope to have more news following his surgery tomorrow afternoon.
I have exceedingly difficult news to share. There is no good way to share it. No one wants to hear this. Alexander has cancer. There is a large mass — believed to be a Wilms’ tumor — that has taken over his right kidney and grown beyond it. There are nodules in his lungs that suggest the cancer has metastasized beyond his abdomen. He isn’t even 4 years old.
I cannot put to words just how devastating this is. There is no way even in the unfairest of unfair worlds that such a young and innocent life should be ravaged like this. It has been breaking my heart repeatedly since this nightmare began to unfold only two days ago.
Alexander is not in pain. He did summersaults in his bed today. But he faces exceptional challenges in the next days, weeks and months as we begin the process of ridding his body of this evil. He will undergo a lengthy surgical operation today to remove the tumor from his abdomen. The outcome of this first step will drive much of what happens next.
Alexander, his mother and I are at Children’s Hospital in Los Angeles. I will provide updates regularly. Keep Alexander in your thoughts. He will need all of our strength and support.